Tuesday, December 21, 2010

a fairytale blogmother

once upon a time, there lived a young girl in a small, peanut-shaped country in the heart of africa. she didn't speak much but she observed her surroundings with a disarming intensity. the girl swallowed sentences regardless of social etiquette: the back of kellogs boxes in the mornings, eyes squinted at pages under late-afternoon shadows, open books next to plates of food at the dinner table...

a good deal of her childhood was spent with a family of seven, five of whom were children bursting with creativity. sadly, the children and their parents kept moving further and further away from the young girl's home. first to a different suburb, then a different city, next a different country, until the little people (who had significantly grown) were living on different continents.

one day, the young girl (you might call her a young woman now) met one of the children of this dear family (you might call her a young woman now) in a cafe at the southernmost tip of africa. they spoke at length and were surprised by the convergences of their seperate life stories: feminism, thoughts on spirituality, an avidity for writing, a passion for social change.

after the young girl/woman left the conversation and the cafe, she felt alive. the world seemed full of possibilities and her head was full of ideas. her hands were buzzing with energy and her heart felt like it was taking up more space in her chest.

a little while later, the young girl/woman came across a pink-and-white-delight. it was love at first sight. as she read, she could taste every single word on her tongue. she could feel the vibrations of each thought as it danced in her mind. she was amazed that this inspirational writing came from a real live human being, a creative child who grew to be, among other things, a faiytale blogmother. she is the reason this blog exists.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

why s/he must write

imagine what would happen if every wo/man in the world told the truth about his/her life. from the little, seemingly inconsequential truths ("i get giddy when i see heart-shaped mocha foam") to larger truths ("i am a survivor of gender-based violence").

in the past five years, i have written as a student of anthropology. while there is some space for the 'I' in reflexive ethnographies, it is expectedly limited. the strictures of academic writing constrain an outpouring of the self.

i am tentatively beginning to write in more fluid, creative ways to free my academically asphyxiated mind.

i am trying to speak from the heart. it is both harder and easier than i thought.

i have mulled over this entry for (six) months because i keep asking myself why - why this urge to write? what lies behind this instinctive sharing of fragmentary truths with any searchers who serendipitously stumble on this screen-space? (long sentence!)

i write because i can't not write. hardly eloquent, but it is what my heart murmurs. for now.